Times, They are A-Changin'

February 9, 2015

Change.

Have I not talked about change enough in the hundreds of posts on this site? Change can be frightening. Change can be a challenge. Change can make you sad. Change can be instant. Change can take a long time to get used to.  Change can make your life a living hell.

But…

Change can be awesome. Change can be exciting. Change can be happy. Change can make your life better. Change can make you the best person you could ever be. Change can be instant. Change can be over time. Change could be the best thing that ever happened to you.

Really, like everything in life, change is all in the way you perceive it. I had deemed myself a pessimist years ago… but in the last few I  decided to grant myself passage from being a pessimist to being a realist. I have to think the way I handle change has everything to do with the life that I have been dealt. A life, might I add that I wouldn’t give up for the world. A life that has had plenty of challenges, obstacles, loss, tragedy and too much sadness for someone in their mid thirties, has also been filled with more love than anyone on this planet ever deserves. With every one of those sad moments… or loss… changes… there has been a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold or an ear to listen. That is how I made it through each and every change in my life from childhood through this very moment, love. Surrounding myself with people, . My realism comes to head when things start to go really well. I have a tendency to just sit back and wait for the tragedy or sadness to set in… almost like its bound to happen… just not sure when.

I am about to embark on one of the biggest changes in my life. I have been "working" on it for the last 39 weeks of course. I have had to change and adapt at the drop of a hat with whatever comes my way and right now... frankly I am on a timeline that is completely out of my own control. That's what is driving me the most crazy! I dint know when the "change" is going to happen!


I am typically in control of things in my life. I like things with structure. I like to know when things are going to happen, I dont really like to be surprised... but something about becoming a Mama... something about this little life, something about every kick and poke and sleepless night... its change that I can deal with, its surprises that I like. Anxiety and anticipation for things I could never imagine before.  They are moments that I just cherish and cant wait to see where life goes from here.


We are getting down to the wire here. My Dr appointments have been pretty routine. Again, something to be so thankful for in a world of the unknown. The Little Monster is running out of room in there and I think is like its Mama in the fact that he/she cant get comfortable on the right side or the left... so why not just keep tossing and turning back and forth! Sure, Mama can deal with it... constant pressure under the ribs and some days there are kicks on the right and some days on the left. This weekend Hubs saw a clear as day "foot" run from the top of my stomach to the bottom... feels so freaking strange. Not sure that this is something I am going to "miss" like people say I will!

My work surprised me with a great little sprinkle on Thursday. They know we are starting to cut it close too. They knew we used the "Little Monster" theme for the big shower so they decorated the conference room with CrossFit Babies and had a smoothie bar! It was perfect! One of the ladies in the office made the best "weight" cakes... which were not only completely adorable, but delicious as well! I have said it before, I will say it again, I am so very lucky to have found my job. I work with and for some very kind people. I cant wait to share the news with them!



The schedule for the gym has been all over the place because of the weather. Totally understandable that they have to close when they do... 5:30am is not the best time to be digging out and trucking through he snow. But, we are all there and we are all working hard whenever we can be! Monday the gym was closed. Tuesday I modified the power snatches to be hang power snatches, just the motion from the floor is a little awkward at this point for a full snatch. I can do them, but I thought hang snatches would be best. Wednesday was KB swings, deadlifts and HSUPs. Again, I modified the HSPUs with KB presses with the 35lb KBs . I cant wait to do handstand pushups again... which is funny because it is not one of my favorites! Friday, I really enjoyed the metcon, a 1K row followed by three rounds of C2Bs (that I did regular pullups for) and wall balls... than burpees. My wall balls are still really feeling good... and I hopped onto the airdyne rather than 30 burpees at the end... but it was one of the workouts that you have this great high when you are done. Felt really good.

Here I am... 39 weeks... post WOD glory! 

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